Sleepless nights

It's 1:30 am, can't sleep, at least not right now. I'll get to sleep here in about an hour or two and then have a hard time waking up in the morning. So frustrating sometimes, too much on my mind, never enough time in the day to accomplish all I want to do or not do! I don't understand people who eat, sleep, live their jobs (careers?), who never vacation and find it hard to relax. I guess I stopped defining myself by my job a long time ago. I am so much more than what I do. I'm at that point in my life where I want to simplify, get rid of the excess, which is WHAT I'd been working for all these years, and concentrate on what's important to me NOW. Of course marrying Dan and getting instant family has changed my direction tremendously, Thank God! They have filled a void I never thought would be filled, given me a reason to go to work everyday. I love my job, the people I work with, it's great, but I still would like to have a job "creating," what, I don't know but most of the time I feel like right under the surface are projects just waiting to happen. I read somewhere once that when you see something you thought of creating or inventing but someone else beat you to it, that it was ready to be created and God found the person who could & would do it at the time needed. So if the "inspiration" is there, DO something about it. That's why creative people often keep a notepad near their bed, to write down those things we think of in that slumber creative state.

Hmmm, "if the inspiration is there, do something about it." I think that will be my matra for the next few weeks, see if it helps to kick start my engine!

I know one thing that will help is our annual scrapbook retreat coming up in October. Right now it's just 4 of us, but I think it will be nice that way. Just Sharon, Michelle, Carolyn & I, we'll probably get a lot done in 3 days. This time I'm going to set a goal and try to reach it. No pressure but something to reach for. I can't wait, I starting planning this in March and I think about it almost every day. It's like one of the things I'm laboring to get to and when it's over I start planning the next one in my head. . . .
Maybe one in March or April 2007???
Sounds good . . .